I wish

I wish I had a broken leg
All wrapped up in a cast,
And crutches so that people know
Why I'm not moving fast.

I wish I had a blind man's cane
To tap before my path
So people near could warn me
Of the bumps and help me pass.

I wish I too had beads of courage
To look at every day
To remind me of each pill I've taken
And each doctors room I've cried.

Instead I stumble blindly through
Each rock, each hole, each wall.
Praying for just one more courage
To get up when I fall.

Instead I feel each judging eye
Slowly break my soul,
And force myself to smile back
As if nothing's wrong at all.